Post by SAM WINCHESTER on Oct 27, 2011 21:01:44 GMT -8
[/font]``SAM WINCHESTER~
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yo, AMY here.
i came here from ELEVEN!
and i joined because it is totally awesome
i've circled the sun 22 times
about 9 of them have been spent roleplaying
i have 2 other characters:
Amy Pond, The Kryiotes
rules? of course I've read the rules; here's proof: glowsticks
i came here from ELEVEN!
and i joined because it is totally awesome
i've circled the sun 22 times
about 9 of them have been spent roleplaying
i have 2 other characters:
Amy Pond, The Kryiotes
rules? of course I've read the rules; here's proof: glowsticks
birth name~ Samuel Winchester
nicknames~ Sam, Sammy (by Dean only), Sasquatch
age && date of birth~ May 2nd, 1983
gender~ male
species~ human
sexuality~ straight
occupation~ Hunter, possible vessel for Lucifer.
face claim~ Jared Padalecki
fandom~ Supernatural
canon / original~ canon
hair color~ Brown
eye color~ Green
height~ 6’5”
weight~ 220lbs
distinctive features~ His height.
general appearance~ Sam has always been tall causing for Dean to crack jokes about his height often referring to him as Sasquatch. Sam takes this without much protest but will shoot Dean a look of disapproval. He always wears some kind of plaid shirt, usually in blues or grays with a green jacket. His jeans are often torn and stained and his boots scuffed. None of his clothing ever looks pristine for the exception of the black suit and tie he and Dean wear when acting as FBI agents. Sam has let his grow out losing what bangs he once had. Now it falls just to the lower part of his neck and is usually pushing it out of his face.
likes~
His big brother. Sam has always looked up to Dean, and wouldn’t be where he is today without him. The two of them may fight like most family does, and even though Dean pulled him back into hunting he doesn’t blame him a single bit. Sam would do anything for Dean and has in past, he was willing to give his soul for his brother and honestly still would.
02. BOBBY~
Bobby has become a father to Sam and Dean over the years. He has seen them through the hardest times and Sam knows they can always count on Bobby. He isn’t just their go to man he’s their friend and family. Like Dean, Sam would lay his life down protecting Bobby if he had to.
03. LAPTOP~
Sam is quite protective of his laptop. In the past with some pranks pulled, or Dean just being careless it has gotten banged up and even broken. It’s his go to resource when there are no libraries. But really who uses a library much anymore these days?
04. RESEARCH~
Unlike Dean, Sam is very studious and is more often than not the research guy. Even with Bobby’s help Sam is normally on his laptop researching the latest case. Sometimes this can be a love hate relationship.
05. HUNTING~
This is kind of slippery slope. On one hand Sam does like the fact that he and his brother save people, but as the years have gone by especially the last couple years things have changed. There is no way Sam could get out of it now not after everything that has happened or what he almost became. [/ul]
dislikes~
Like every hunter Sam hates demons and even more so he hates that he was foolish enough to trust one of them. This hatred for demons spreads to the entire supernatural world, but Sam is a bit more forgiven n certain cases than his brother is.
02. NOT BEING ABLE TO SAVE PEOPLE~ Sam is all about saving others, so is his brother. But Sam has shown in the past concern for some of the monsters they have hunted, most specifically Madison. He didn’t want to kill Madison soon as he found out what she was, and instead tried to save her and cure her. Unfortunately he was unable to do so.
03. FAILURE~ Sam has always felt the need to prove himself to both his father and his older brother. He hates to disappoint Dean but cannot stand to fail at anything. He is a determined individual. Even during the entire situation with Ruby, Sam was dead set on succeeding in destroying Lilith no matter what the cost. He was willing to do practically anything to destroy her.
04. IMMATURITY~ Although younger than his brother, Sam is the more mature of the two. Dean is the one to crack the jokes during situations to which Sam chides him for. Dean tends to call Sam by some nickname that, while not all too offensive, grates on Sam’s nerve. He is constantly telling his older brother how immature he can be. Sam is definitely the more serious of the two, and while his dislikes his brother for being immature at times Sam can have a few streaks where he acts the same. For instance, the prank war that went on between the two of them a few years back.
05. CLOWNS~ Apparently they kill. Sam has always had a fear or a strong dislike of clowns. A couple years back Sam & Dean had to work a job that dealt with a clown that killed, and needless to say Sam was not completely thrilled about that job. He is still freaked out by them.[/ul]
habits~
02. ANGRY OUTBURSTS~ Sam is usually fairly level headed, and unlike his brother will try and figure out the situation before shooting. However, Sam has a tendency to lash out verbally. Sam tries to control his anger, and when he had the demon blood in his system it was harder to do.
03. SELF SACRIFICE~ Sam would do anything to save his brother and was willing to die for him on several occasions. If it ever came down to him or his brother, even him or the world Sam would give his life first and foremost.
04. SENSITIVE~ Sam is more open about his emotions than his brother. He is willing to talk about things to get them into the open. Sam, in the past, has attempted to get Dean to talk about the death of their father, and then Dean’s time in Hell only for Dean to shut him out. As Dean would call these moments of emotional release “chick flick moments”. Sam may be liar in some respects but he is normally open about his emotions. He doesn’t hide like Dean tends to do and you can usually see the expression of sadness or depression in his eyes or on his face. Sam is the more openly sensitive of the two brothers.
05. TRAPS~ Sam, while his heart is in a good place and he is very intelligent, tends to do some un intelligent things sometimes mostly going into a trap willingly. If Sam knows it’s a trap it does not make him any less likely to go into it. [/ul]
strengths~
02. RESEARCH~ The two of them, Sam & Dean, both do research but Sam has shown a knack for it often heading off to the library or resorting to looking something up on his laptop. He is very good at hacking into places and coming up with information, much like Dean and Bobby. Sam also seems to like it a bit more than the others.
03. SYMPATHY~ Sam has shown massive amount of sympathy. He knows when a job needs to get done but he is kind soul. After discovering Madison was a werewolf, Sam did everything in his power to attempt to “cure” her. When learning that there was no fixing her, he was forced to shoot her. This broke Sam’s heart but there have been other occasions where Sam has shown sympathy for some of the supernatural things they have hunted. Sometimes his sympathy and kind heart can be weakness.
04. COMBAT~ Sam and Dean were raised like soldiers. He learned at a young age to fight and so became good at it. Sam has height and size on his side and is capable of taking someone down with ease. Of course everything is a little different if the thing they are fighting is supernatural.
05. DEAN~ This can be taken a few different ways. Living with his brother for so long, Sam is able to put up with Dean and his immaturity much to Sam’s displeasure. He may get angry with the guy but is practically used to Dean’s behavior and habits. And while Dean is a weakness of his, his brother also makes him stronger. Sam has always wanted to be like his big brother and has looked up to him his whole life.[/ul]
weaknesses~
02. GUILT~ Sam carries around guilt that is mostly caused by the release of Lucifer by his hands. It is because of Sam that Lucifer is free and his lying has caused a rift between him and Dean. Sam will try to find redemption for what he has done. For the most part Sam tried not to let the guilt of this take hold of him. But he is reminded that the coming apocalypse is his fault.
03. ANGER/TEMPER~ Sam has outbursts of anger. Usually he is a calm more relaxed guy than his brother but when angered Sam can be a force to reckon with. Again reckless decision can be made when he is angry, like how he very nearly killed Dean in a fit a rage during the last (physical) fight they had.
04. STUBBORN~ Sam and Dean are both stubborn but Sam is not about to be the little brother forever. He always wants to prove himself and he is not about to run from a fight or a situation just because someone said to. He sticks to what he thinks is right and what he believes is best. This back fired on him while he trusted Ruby despite his brother and even Castiel’s warnings.
05. BOBBY~ Bobby is yet another weakness of Sam’s. After the death of their father, Bobby became a surrogate father to them both. He is not only their friend but the only family they consider to have left. Sam would do anything for Bobby as well. The way through Sam is to get through those he is closest with, although, this could backfire and only cause Sam’s temper to skyrocket. [/ul]
goals~ To make up for breaking Lucifer free, and to make things right again with Dean.
secrets~ Sam has kept many things from Dean in the past, nothing was greater than Ruby and the demon blood.
overall personality~ Sam is a guy who normally wears his heart on his sleeve, making his emotions easily seen. As such he can seem really trustworthy even when he is lying. He more courteous and polite than his brother Dean and is an ask questions first shoot later kind of guy. He balances his brother out and tries to be the voice of reason in almost any situation. Sam has a good head on his shoulders and has constant determination; he is a strategist and turns to research before jumping into something. He will usually try to find another way to solve things, and always believes there has to be another way much like his brother. As Sam is normally up front with his emotions he can over process them, it gets so that he isn’t sure what he is feeling anymore. Over time, Sam has found the need to change in his way of thinking. Whether it was due to his brother’s death or certain circumstances with the Yellowed Eyed demon Azazel.
Sam has always been intelligent and independent, hence the reason he felt the need to leave his father and brother to lead his own life. Growing up Sam wasn’t like Dean who was into the whole idea of hunting. Sam didn’t like being the freak and just wanted a normal life. For a long time Sam actually hated his father for exposing them to that life. The two of them fought often and one fight lead to Sam leaving and heading off to college. Despite the denial and his anger Sam held toward his father, he is more like John than Dean is. The two have like personalities, he is strong headed and stubborn to a fault.
While Sam seems like the sensitive intelligent guy he is, there is also anger that is bottled up inside of him. There is rage inside Sam that is steadily making it’s way to the surface. Now and then he has been known to outburst but on a normal day Sam is able to keep it in check. The extreme anger isn’t usually seen unless someone has threatened or harmed his family, namely Dean, in anyway. After the death of their father, Bobby Singer became Sam and Dean kind of surrogate father. Sam would sacrifice himself for either Dean or Bobby. While he has a need or want to be independent Sam relies on his brother. Dean is Sam’s biggest strength and at the same time, his greatest weakness.
Sam would do anything for Dean, just as Dean would do anything for him (such as selling his soul to bring Sam back to life). Dean had become more of a father to Sam growing up than John. In any normal circumstances the two of them may never have spoken as they simply don’t have much in common. What they do have is hunting and it has bounded the brothers over the years. Sam has never enjoyed being called Sammy, at least not while he was an adult. At first he maintained that Dean call him Sam not Sammy. After spending more time with Dean Sam came around and accepted it. However, no one else is to call him Sammy, except Bobby. Dean’s attitude in certain situations, like his need to joke about in serious times, annoys Sam to no end. He wishes that Dean would actually admit that they are in deep shit. More to the point Sam knows how Dean hides his emotions and just wants his brother to open up to him. Ironically enough Sam has kept secrets and certain emotions from Dean in past. It’s a two way street and it looks like Sam has the tendency to be a hypocrite.
At the end of the day Sam will always be the younger brother, and he deals with Dean trying to protect all the time. here are little things that set the two of them apart such their taste in music, and Sam is more conscious about what he puts into his body food wise. Overall, Sam is more reserved than his brother and tends to think with his heart. Sam is very protective of those around him and has a strong sense of sacrifice. There are times Sam can be driven past the point of logic and reacts only to protect or save someone. He is noble and is always willing to stay and help someone in need.
In recent time Sam has undoubtedly grown a larger ego, even if he feels that his intentions are pure, Sam remains certain that he is the only one powerful enough to stop Lilith. It was startling to learn that Dean was told to kill Sam if he was unable to save him. This made Sam feel even more of a freak with the demon blood that ran through him. Sam was afraid to tell Dean about his abilities when they first showed up. He convinced that he would go dark side if he continued to use his powers. Sam didn’t want the temptation and thankfully after Azazel was killed the dreams stopped. A demon by the name of Ruby blew into town and saved Sam’s ass. At first Sam didn’t know what to really think of Ruby. When she told Sam she was able to save Dean he was forced to trust her. When the boys had a chance to destroy Lilith Ruby asked Sam to train to use his powers, and naturally he refused.
After the death of his brother, Sam saw no other way to destroy Lilith and he has turned to training with Ruby to use his psychic abilities. After saving Sam’s ass yet again in the months that followed Dean’s death Ruby now has Sam’s complete trust. He will defend her and even go as far to try and defend his twisted relationship with her. Sam has lied to Dean in the past but now the lying is got out of control. He hides much of what he did while Dean was dead most of all the fact that he has been able to exorcise demons with his mind.
He hates himself for being the one to break the last seal and setting Lucifer free. Sam feels even worse for what he did to Dean, choosing Ruby over his own brother. Things feel awkward now between him and Dean as Sam tries to make penance for what he done. He is more determined than ever to stop the apocalypse.
home town~ Lawrence, Kansas
current residence~ Bobby’s, the Impala, _____ Motel.
parents~
John Winchester –deceased
Mary Winchester –deceased
siblings~
Dean Winchester
Adam Milligan –half brother
pets~ none
family~
Bobby Singer –has become his surrogate father
history~ Sam Winchester was born May 2nd, 1983 to John and Mary Winchester of Lawrence Kansas. When Sam was 6 months old the Yellow Eyed Demon came into his nursery and bled into Sam’s mouth. His mother walked in and was killed by Yellow Eyes. Since then Sam traveled around the country with his father and older brother Dean. Sam was under the impression that their mom was killed in a car accident until he was around 8 year old and Dean told him the truth about his dad and everything else. Sam and Dean were raised like soldiers. After Sam learned the truth their dad put them through weapons training as well as physical combat training. Sam liked school and was once asked by one of his teachers if he wanted to go into the family business. Sam replied “more than anything, no.” When Sam was old enough to go to college he left his dad and Dean to go to Stanford to study law. His father told him if he was leaving he should stay gone, and for about two or three years Sam did just that.
Sam met Jessica at Stanford and the two became quite serious. One night after celebrating his amazing LSAT scores Dean decided to pay a visit his way, by breaking in late at night. Sam learned that his dad had gone missing and Sam set out with Dean for a few days to track down their dad. When the next clue was to lead them to Colorado, Sam told Dean he wouldn’t be able to help as he had an interview the next day. Dean dropped Sam back off and for a bit Sam was glad to be back. That was until he found Jessica pinned to the ceiling bleeding and engulfed in flames. It was the work of Yellow Eyes. After Jessica’s death Sam could only think about hunting down the thing that killed her and his mom. Sam set out with Dean around the country searching for any sign of the demon that killed them. On their journey Sam begins to discover odd things about him, such as precognition and at one point he was even able to use telekinesis. After finding their father and a gun made by Samuel Colt that was able to actually kill demons they set out together to find old Yellow Eyes. After escaping the Yellow Eyed Demon Sam drives his father and brother to the hospital making plans to track down the demon again with the gun but they are hit by a semi driven by a demon-possessed driver.
The accident sent Deans into intensive care. Their dad made a deal with Yellow Eyes to trade his life for Deans and Sam found John lying dead in his hospital room. The two brothers went in search for the YED again, except they no longer have the colt. Sam learned that he is not the only person his age to have abilities. There were others who had special powers too the same age as him. During this time Sam had also been made aware that he was immune to some of these powers and is even immune the demonic Croatoan virus. Sam and Dean continued to hunt and more about Sam’s destiny became revealed. He discovered that Yellow Eyes had major plans for him and other children like him, he was meant to be a soldier in an upcoming war.
Dean told Sam that before their father died he told Dean that if he was unable to save Sam he would have to kill him. When the time came Sam transported to an abandoned and haunted town in South Dakota with the other kids who displayed similar powers. It was a battle royale and only one would come out the winner. It is here that Sam actually learned about the demon blood that floats around inside of him. He tried to band everyone together but it backfires. Eventually it came down to Sam and Jake. Sam knocked Jake unconscious but finds he was in good conscious unable to actually kill him. Sam wandered off through the town and found Booby and Dean had come for him. With his back turned Sam was unable to see Jake come up behind him with a knife. The knife was driven deep into Sam’s spinal cord and he died in Dean’s arms.
Sam woke up not remembering anything about being stabbed. He had no idea that Dean had gone and sold his soul to bring him back. Sam was told that Dean merely patched him up and he would be good at new. Sam and Dean went off to make one last stand against Yellow Eyes in a graveyard in Wyoming. In order to prevent Jake from unleashing hell Sam kills him unloading the gun into Jake’s body. After Dean killed Yellow Eyes with the Colt, Sam figured out from Jake’s reaction that he was actually killed when Jake stabbed him. Dean told Sam the deal he made and Sam was determined to get Dean out of the deal no matter what it took.
Over the next year Sam spent most of his time trying to figure out a way to free Dean from his deal. He tried to speak with the Crossroads Demon but when she wouldn’t tell who held Dean’s contract he shot her with the Colt. As the brothers continued to travel Sam received help from an unlikely source, a demon named Ruby. She claimed that not everyone in hell was opposed to helping. She had gained Sam’s trust by claiming she could get Dean out of his contract. Sam began to become a shoot first ask question later kind of guy and showed almost no remorse for killing demons who possessed human bodies.
Sam and Dean found out that a powerful demon named Lilith held Dean’s contract and the two made plans to destroy her. However, Ruby claimed neither of them were strong enough or prepared. Ruby tried to get Sam to use his abilities, she wanted to train him but Dean didn’t want Sam to tap into that power. The two went off to face Lilith just hours before Dean’s time was up. Lilith had them both cornered possessing Ruby’s form host. She sent the hellhounds on Dean and Sam was forced to watch as his brother was torn to shreds by the beasts. Lilith tried to kill Sam but he was immune to her fancy demon laser trick. Lilith fled from the body before Sam could kill her.
For the next four months Sam was alone. He was a complete wreck after burying Dean until Ruby showed up again. She spent time with Sam and taught him how to use his abilities. Now Sam is able to exercise demons with his mind. When Sam saw Dean standing in the doorway of his motel room he was overcome with disbelief and tried to slash his throat. He didn’t believe it was Dean at first but when he realized it was truly his brother he was filled with relief. Sam lied to Dean and told him that he was not using his psychic powers knowing how much Dean would disapprove and how he would not understand. Nights after Dean’s return, thanks to an angel named Castiel, Sam continued to meet Ruby in order to practice his abilities. Though when Dean found out a fight erupted between the two and although Sam promised to stop using his powers it didn’t last long. Dean eventually discovered that Sam was drinking demon’s blood in order to boost his powers.
After Dean’s death, Sam was distraught and desperate to find a way to save his brother. No matter how many cross road demons he tried to make a deal with, no one was buying. Ruby found him and basically saved Sam’s life and showed him that by using demon’s blood he could effectively save those who were possessed by demons and in turn become strong enough to take care of Lilith. But Sam could not stop, he became addicted to demons blood and in an attempt to detox it from his system Dean and Booby locked him in the panic room in Bobby’s basement. The withdraw from demon blood profoundly affected Sam, causing him to hallucinate within the room. He reunites with Ruby after leaving and proceeds to consume more demons blood knowing there are only a few more seals left for Lilith to break and they are running out of time. Dean confronted Sam about his behavior and his actions with Ruby. Sam, defensive, lashed out at Dean and nearly strangled him. He left and joined back up with Ruby in order to destroy Lilith before she could break the next seal. However, in a cruel twist of fate, Sam learned that Ruby was working for Lilith the whole time and that killing Lilith was the final seal and because of Sam Lucifer was able to be freed.
rp sample~
Sam sat there at the small table inside yet another motel room. He had lost count over a dozen years ago at how many of these things he had stayed in. It was pointless to keep track. One would think he would have gotten used to it by now but Sam did wish they could have a more permanent residence, fat chance in hell that was going to happen. Beyond all of this, Sam sat hunched over a few open books and his trusty laptop. There was a pad of paper off to his right and a pen in his hand. He was supposed to be looking up information on the next case but it was close to two in the morning. Dean was asleep which left Sam with all the research. He was always better at it anyway. Still, Sam felt restlessness inside of him. He began to tap the pen on the paper. His eyes stared at the screen hardly bothering to read the words on the most obscure websites he could find.
He drew in a breath and sighed glancing over to Dean out cold in bed. His jacket was used as a cover instead of the actual blanket. Lazy. If he was going to sleep might as well go the full mile. Sam rolled his eyes back to the computer. He stopped tapping the pen and sat up straighter trying to shake the sleep from his eyes. The words hardly made sense anymore. Sam was fighting a losing battle, the drowsiness didn’t leave and sleep final overtook him. His head fell to his chest.
Everything was dark for what seemed like hours but sudden Sam opened his eyes and found himself back in his nursery in Lawrence. The only thing in the room was his crib, which sat empty. Sam looked around and upon closer inspection he saw that the door to the room was missing. His brow furrowed.
‘Hello Sam.’ A woman's voice greeted him.
Sam whipped around at the sound of the female voice. It took a moment for Sam to realize he was staring at his girlfriend Jessica. His expression softened in a heartbeat, seeing her again brought up so many emotions that Sam couldn’t single one out.
“Jes.” He whispered drinking in the sight of her. “This is a dream.”
‘It is.’ Jessica remained at the other corner of the room as she spoke. Sam wanted to close the distance between them and hold her in his arms but something held him back. ‘What are you doing here Sam?’
Sam didn’t have to ask what she meant because he already knew. His heart felt heavy in his chest he swallowed and tried think of how to begin. “I’m trying to stop the apocalypse from happening.”
‘It’s a heavy burden, why you? Why can’t you let Dean help you?’ Sam felt anger begin to build inside the pit of stomach as Jessica spoke. It was the same thing everybody had been saying to him in last couple months. Sam couldn’t bring himself to be completely anger with Jessica.
Sam spoke again with drive to his words. He had thought all of this endlessly before.“Dean gave his life for me, I’m willing to do the same thing if that is what it takes. I know I always say there's another way but I'm not so sure this time. When you get down to brass tacks it’s simple, Dean can’t defeat Lilith. I’m the only one who could be strong enough to fight her and win.”
‘You think Dean wants you to die for him Sam?’ Her tone was flat void of emotion, it almost wasn’t Jessica but her words still ate at Sam’s conscious. What the hell kind of cracked out dream was this? Sam sighed and shook his head desperately.
“I’m trying to save him and Bobby and everyone else. I’m trying to save the world. I just don’t understand why he won’t let me do that.” Frustration began to cause Sam’s body to shake. He hadn’t verbally voiced these thoughts, at least not in this exact wording. Sam wished he could just explain to Dean everything he was trying to do but no matter how he spun it Sam knew that Dean would find a way to turn everything back around into something negative. Sam tore his eyes away from Jessica and stared at the empty crib. For some reason it bothered Sam that the crib had not even a single blanket inside of it. He felt there should have been something or someone there.
‘It’s not what you are trying to do Sam, it’s how you are doing it.’ Jessica was suddenly a foot from Sam. As he looked back he took a step away in shock.
“I don’t like as much as Dean does but if I can kill Lilith then by all means I want this.” Sam said with determination. “I swore I would kill that bitch, and I will.”
Jessica looked up into Sam’s eyes and smiled, her lips peeling back to reveal her pearly white teeth. ‘I know you will Sam. We’re counting on it.’
Sam blinked and cocked his head to the side wondering what she meant by that statement. Before Sam could ask he felt a slight jolt and his eyes shot open. His pocket vibrated furiously. Rubbing his eyes he reached in and looked at the id lit up on the display. A ten-digit number without a name lit the screen. Sam knew the number and had purposely left it without a name. Immediately he looked over to Dean paranoid that his brother had woken and knew who was calling. Seeing Dean still out cold Sam pressed the talk button and put the phone to his ear.
“Hello?”
Sam swallowed and didn’t say another word for a minute. He kept his eyes glued on Dean’s sleeping form. “Got it. I’ll be there.” Sam hung up the phone. Carefully he stood up from his place at the table grabbing his jacket.
As Sam carefully picked up the keys to the Impala on the side table, he thought back to his dream. Dean wouldn’t approve of what Sam was about to do, but he was doing it for the best. He hoped that one day Dean would wake up and actually see it. Sam moved quickly and silently to the motel door. He gave one last look at his brother before slipping out to meet Ruby.
He drew in a breath and sighed glancing over to Dean out cold in bed. His jacket was used as a cover instead of the actual blanket. Lazy. If he was going to sleep might as well go the full mile. Sam rolled his eyes back to the computer. He stopped tapping the pen and sat up straighter trying to shake the sleep from his eyes. The words hardly made sense anymore. Sam was fighting a losing battle, the drowsiness didn’t leave and sleep final overtook him. His head fell to his chest.
Everything was dark for what seemed like hours but sudden Sam opened his eyes and found himself back in his nursery in Lawrence. The only thing in the room was his crib, which sat empty. Sam looked around and upon closer inspection he saw that the door to the room was missing. His brow furrowed.
‘Hello Sam.’ A woman's voice greeted him.
Sam whipped around at the sound of the female voice. It took a moment for Sam to realize he was staring at his girlfriend Jessica. His expression softened in a heartbeat, seeing her again brought up so many emotions that Sam couldn’t single one out.
“Jes.” He whispered drinking in the sight of her. “This is a dream.”
‘It is.’ Jessica remained at the other corner of the room as she spoke. Sam wanted to close the distance between them and hold her in his arms but something held him back. ‘What are you doing here Sam?’
Sam didn’t have to ask what she meant because he already knew. His heart felt heavy in his chest he swallowed and tried think of how to begin. “I’m trying to stop the apocalypse from happening.”
‘It’s a heavy burden, why you? Why can’t you let Dean help you?’ Sam felt anger begin to build inside the pit of stomach as Jessica spoke. It was the same thing everybody had been saying to him in last couple months. Sam couldn’t bring himself to be completely anger with Jessica.
Sam spoke again with drive to his words. He had thought all of this endlessly before.“Dean gave his life for me, I’m willing to do the same thing if that is what it takes. I know I always say there's another way but I'm not so sure this time. When you get down to brass tacks it’s simple, Dean can’t defeat Lilith. I’m the only one who could be strong enough to fight her and win.”
‘You think Dean wants you to die for him Sam?’ Her tone was flat void of emotion, it almost wasn’t Jessica but her words still ate at Sam’s conscious. What the hell kind of cracked out dream was this? Sam sighed and shook his head desperately.
“I’m trying to save him and Bobby and everyone else. I’m trying to save the world. I just don’t understand why he won’t let me do that.” Frustration began to cause Sam’s body to shake. He hadn’t verbally voiced these thoughts, at least not in this exact wording. Sam wished he could just explain to Dean everything he was trying to do but no matter how he spun it Sam knew that Dean would find a way to turn everything back around into something negative. Sam tore his eyes away from Jessica and stared at the empty crib. For some reason it bothered Sam that the crib had not even a single blanket inside of it. He felt there should have been something or someone there.
‘It’s not what you are trying to do Sam, it’s how you are doing it.’ Jessica was suddenly a foot from Sam. As he looked back he took a step away in shock.
“I don’t like as much as Dean does but if I can kill Lilith then by all means I want this.” Sam said with determination. “I swore I would kill that bitch, and I will.”
Jessica looked up into Sam’s eyes and smiled, her lips peeling back to reveal her pearly white teeth. ‘I know you will Sam. We’re counting on it.’
Sam blinked and cocked his head to the side wondering what she meant by that statement. Before Sam could ask he felt a slight jolt and his eyes shot open. His pocket vibrated furiously. Rubbing his eyes he reached in and looked at the id lit up on the display. A ten-digit number without a name lit the screen. Sam knew the number and had purposely left it without a name. Immediately he looked over to Dean paranoid that his brother had woken and knew who was calling. Seeing Dean still out cold Sam pressed the talk button and put the phone to his ear.
“Hello?”
Sam swallowed and didn’t say another word for a minute. He kept his eyes glued on Dean’s sleeping form. “Got it. I’ll be there.” Sam hung up the phone. Carefully he stood up from his place at the table grabbing his jacket.
As Sam carefully picked up the keys to the Impala on the side table, he thought back to his dream. Dean wouldn’t approve of what Sam was about to do, but he was doing it for the best. He hoped that one day Dean would wake up and actually see it. Sam moved quickly and silently to the motel door. He gave one last look at his brother before slipping out to meet Ruby.
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